Seven weeks ago, I woke one morning with severe vertigo. Not just your everyday run of the mill morning dizzy spell. Full blown vertigo. Violent spinning. No up, no down. No gravity. Simultaneously falling and whirling. Lots of vomiting. In short, no reference point whatsoever. Disorientation at it's finest. At one point, I literally found myself asking.....who the hell is this Bronwen character anyway?!
It was the most painfully incapacitating three days of my life and I hope to never experience it again. Talk about cramping my style!!! I'm a horrible candidate for incapacitation. I'm pleased to report that I am on the mend and only now get "dizzy" occasionally, which I've learned is normal following a bout of severe vertigo. Oddly, I've come out of the entire experience contemplating......pretty much everything I've ever learned from society.
When we step out of our normal world and leave behind us all the usual barriers and prejudices, we tend to become more adventurous.
Sometimes when I travel, I purposefully get lost. Sometimes I end up in a bummer place and get hungry and grumpy and the whole getting lost thing kinda sucks. But more often than not, I uncover a place or a person or a thought that becomes very important in my life. Allowing ourselves to get lost......the adventure takes on a life of its own.
The same is true for our THINKING. The more adventurous we become with our thinking, the more opportunities exist to uncover something that you actually believe at your very core. I mean believe with your heart and your body and your mind. Not because everyone else says they believe it or a book tells you to believe it. But because it makes sense and feels right to YOU in your gut (or as my 3 year old niece, Wyatt, calls it your "gutlet"). We all want to feel good in our gutlets, right?
I'm not saying that severe vertigo is any great ride or anything like that. But I am saying that sometimes we need to be tipped upside down and whirled around, spun wildly, and perhaps even vomit a few times god forbid, to even question our own thinking and believing.
The adventure continues.......
Bronwen
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